Sunday, November 9

When life gives you lemons

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October was one of the hardest months of my life. I felt as if I was drowning in a pile of school work, long night shifts, and bathroom runs to relieve my nausea. There was a point when I was in a pretty dark place. I was doing terribly in school and really didn't feel like I was progressing in any aspect of my life. I cried. a lot. and legitimately contemplated dropping out of my nursing program.. Luckily, I have an incredibly supportive and patient husband who talked some sense into me. I decided I wasn't going to give up. I've heard the phrase "God never gives you anything you can't handle" several times.. and I've never really agreed with it. This little sliver of my life may seem like nothing compared to the trials people face, but I couldn't handle it... on my own at least. I think God actually does give us more than we can handle, so that we will look to our Savior and rely upon him. As hard as this experience was for me, I knew Christ was with me every step of the way. I can now say that I'm in a much better place. I've been doing well in school, my work schedule has calmed down, and I feel like I can breathe again! I know that certain life experiences may just suck... but I learned that they don't last forever. There is always light at the end of your seemingly, never-ending dark tunnel :)

As I was contemplating all of this trial talk, I couldn't help but use this title for my post. Our baby is the size of a lemon this week! As hard as pregnancy has been, this little lemon has kept me going... and now for a pregnancy update!

How far along are you: almost 15 weeks

Size: a lemon

Cravings: YES. I never actually get the same craving twice, but when they come it is full force. They've been anywhere from Taco Bell's crunch wrap supreme to fruit smoothies and cold cereal.

Any sign of a bump: I'm not really sure if it's a food baby from the result from my taco bell runs, but there is a teeny tiny something. I wouldn't quite call it a bump yet!

Boy or girl: At first I felt like it was a boy, but now I'm second guessing myself. Kevin is dyyying to have a boy and I'm rooting for a girl, so we'll see!

Nauseated: Still going strong! crossing my fingers it dies down pretty soon. Baby is healthy though, so I can't complain too much.

Names: We want to find out the gender before we stress over names, but we're working on them.

Shopping: I've stayed strong! I still haven't bought anything for the little one yet, although I have browsed at some cribs. Grandma, on the other hand, probably has a whole wardrobe underway.

Weird pregnancy moment: Dreeeeeeams. Such bizzare dreams. and... pregnancy brain is real. I forget everything!

Most nervous about: The lack of sleep I'll be getting. I'm kinnnd of a beast when I don't get my 8 hours in.

Most excited about: With the holidays coming up, I can't help but wonder what traditions our little family will start. I get so excited thinking about our babe and how much our lives will change.


  1. oh you sweet girl. I can empathize 100% with how you are feeling!! just keep going and you will finish before you know it!! nausea is no fun .. but it usually means a healthy baby - that's what got me through it with gav. love you!! let me know if you need anything!!!

    1. Thanks Court! It's nice to know that someone really can relate :)

  2. sooooo happy for you! we too are expecting! i am 14 weeks! look forward to your posts!


    1. yay!! That is so exciting, congrats! You're only a couple week behind me :)

  3. (I meant to comment when I first read this but it wouldn't let me.: Thank you so much for writing this because I loved what you said about relying on the Savior. I'm so excited for you!!

    1. Awwwe. Thanks cous, you're the sweetest!