Friday, June 12

on motherhood

Motherhood has not come easy for me. I'm not sure if it's easy for anyone, but I do feel like it may come more naturally for some people. Don't get me wrong, the love I have for my daughter comes naturally.. But this parenting gig has been quitttte the adjustment. I have a newfound respect for all mothers, especially my own.. and single moms! I don't know what I would do without Kev. Unfortunately Mabel girl has colic and reflux and all sorts of gas issues, so it's a rarity to find her content. We've tried everything from medication to eliminating foods that may trigger it. At this point I've just decided to be patient and wait until she outgrows it. I've learned a lottttt about patience, and pray about ten times a day to be given more if it. I can say that as hard as it's been, every one of my pleading prayers has been answered. I know I'm supposed to go through this for some reason.. and I feel like through it all, Mabey and I have grown so close. I sure hope I don't come off sounding ungrateful, because I've never felt so much joy or fulfillment.. It's just much harder than I had anticipated. The good news is that it gets easier with each day, as we slowly figure things out. And if I've learned anything it's that everything is a phase. It won't last forever. We will survive, even if we're covered in battle wounds (spit up and baby poop).. We just need to be patient. 

Monday night Kev had the brilliant idea of having a picnic up in the canyon. It was exactly what I needed after a day filled with lots of tears (from both baby and I). I love going to Southfork because it reminds me of my childhood when we would drive up on Sundays as a family. It really was the perfect evening with our new little family of three. I'm so grateful to live close to such beauty, and man that mountain air is good for the soul. 


  1. Mabel is so darling. She sounds just like Sage at that age. I hated when people would tell me that it gets better but it seriously does. They will outgrow it quick! Hang in there.

    1. Thank you so much!! It's nice to know there are others out there and she is slowly but surely doing better! Crossing my fingers :)

  2. You got this girl!! We had days where it felt like all we did was cry too- yes both Tally and I haha. Just remember you're amazing and you are all cute Mabel needs!! Text me if you ever just need to get out of the house!